"When I die, I will become the air you breathe"

The environment in which I live is full of deception and blurred sentences. I also lie and say many things diametrically opposite to what I really think. Looking for a way out of this situation, I delve deeper and deeper into the past. Not only mine anymore but the people I still feel the attraction to. Sometimes, I feel that I look at the landscape or a street corner with their eyes.
I want to understand what they could and wanted to do, to be aware of every moment that needs to be experienced. The more I look within myself, the more clearly I see the dots connecting time and distance. Everything is connected. Most likely, that infinity is also full of lies, but I perceive them as my own and not experienced by others.